We hear a lot today about “being mindful” and “being present.” In my journey of self-growth, I have been studying this concept and trying to understand why and how to go about the process.
I grew up with the idea that the more I could do at one time, the more I could accomplish. Learning that I am able to be more effective by staying focused on one task has been a challenging learning curve and my attempts at being mindful have looked something like this:
“I’m supposed to take 3 minutes to be still and breathe and be completely present with myself, so, here I go.”
“This is taking forever.”
“I’ve got things to do.”
“No, this is for my good.”
“I can do this.” “Peace.”
“Did I send that email?”
“I’ll check as soon as I finish this.”
And on and on it goes, the self-talk, trying to talk myself into a state of calm and inner listening.
Rather than being a supportive, strengthening opportunity, my mindfulness practice was just one more thing on my to-do list.
Well, over time, I’ve improved my ability and am now beginning to enjoy the results. I’ve also discovered something completely unexpected.
Being absolutely present in the moment is FUN! Not only am I able to be more effective, but I experience greater happiness and enjoyment in what I am doing at that moment!
I don’t know why I was surprised, but I was. Delightfully surprised!
In writing, in eating, in conversing with a person, in thinking, etc. when I am completely and utterly focused on that moment, I feel HAPPY! My thoughts are not scattered. I’m not feeling torn to be in two places at once. I’m not worried about what just happened or what might happen in half an hour. I am fully present and enjoying every minute of it!
Yes, I am just a beginner in this process and it is taking time and effort to re-train years of spinning thoughts, but what a discovery on how to be happy!
I encourage you to become more aware of your thoughts and to focus them, even if only for a few seconds, on where you are in that very moment. Your mind may pull you away, but just keep practicing. Sooner or later, you might come to have your own epiphanies and maybe discover that this process of self-growth can actually be quite fun!
Sending you much love,
